Soul Gap: Shouldn’t We Be Happy
I was successful…and you’re likely are, too..
I had a very successful business – shouldn’t I’ve just been happy? Some of my students were given the opportunity to perform during the half-time show of the Sugar Bowl in New Orleans, and later during a Harlem Globetrotters game at DePaw University. In fact, over the next few years I took other students to perform during half-time of the Orange Bowl in Miami and the Alamo Bowl in San Antonio.
Many of my kids competed regionally and nationally and earned tons and tons of awards. They did a great job for being recreational dancers from a small redneck town 🙂 Those students who didn’t compete performed locally or just enjoyed their classes.
But it all came crashing in on me…
My class rosters filled every year to the point of overflowing at times. People recognized me in the community, and sometimes shocked me by treating me like a local celebrity – that still blows my mind. But, on that one day everything just came crashing in on me. I LOVED my girls and the handful of boys I taught. I adored most of their parents.
Laugh and have fun when encountering challenges
All of my classes, from my pre-schoolers to my high schoolers to my oldest student, who was 78 at the time, got way more than how to correctly do a plié or a step-shuffle-ball-change. I taught them to laugh and have fun when encountering challenges. I taught them to never give up. I taught them to have confidence in themselves. I taught them to put trust in the right coach or mentor. I taught them to go after their dreams. But, I had hit this wall where it felt like I was just starting over every August with “step, heel, step, heel, step heel, toe”.
It was the same thing over and over…
Autumn after autumn, I was once again choreographing new routines for the spring recital and competitions throughout the year, and teaching little Susie how to do a cartwheel. Of course, a lot of my students were with me from age three or four all the way into high school, and they certainly weren’t starting over every year, but my soul was calling…and it wouldn’t take no for an answer.
Geesh, get over it!
Yet, I still kept asking myself, “Come on. Look at all you have. All you’ve accomplished. How much those kids adore you. Shouldn’t you be happy? What the hell else do you want? Geesh Janelle, get over it!”
Don’t ignore your future and your dreams believing that you should just get over it!
Janelle Alex – Transpersonal Business Coach & Shaman for wild women who want to make a real difference in the world, but don’t know where to start.